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This is my latest drawing called "Roots of Creation". This woman represents everything beautiful on earth. She's the mother of our children, and the creator of nature and the savior of freedom. I hope to make this into a series of drawings like I have done before if I have enought inspiration left for them. As some of you know. I'm not very good at doing the same thing for a long time, I get bored easily.







Roots of Creation, 31 may 2010.



Bisous strangers

Today it's Mothers day, at least in Sweden. So this is for my mum!






She used to me my only enemy and never letting me be free
Catching me in places that I knew I shouldn't be
Every other day I crossed the line, I didn't mean to be so bad
I never thought you would become the friend I never had

I didn't wanna hear it then but, I'm not ashamed to say it now
Every little thing you've said and did was right for me
I had alot of time to thing about, about the way it used to be
Never had a sense of my responsability

I have now started to empty my apartment, I figured I might as well start since I have no more stuff to throw out than I have to keep.

I have one bag for throwing and one bag for things I just can not get myself to throw away, so I'll give it to my friends who are staying in Paris.

My list, please tell me if you want any of the following things:

• Woman's Health, Primerose Oil to help maintain hormonal balance
• Multivitamins
• Pills for positive thoughts (no it's not E)
• Toothpaste (not used)
• Aussie, Miracle Moist schampoo
• Lumene Vitamine C Facial Day Creme (never used)
• Palmolive Cherry blossom shower cream (never used)
• Nosedrops (never used)

More will come trust me! But this is what I've got so far!

Tomorrow I'm meeting Maria for shopping, I'm looking for a bag. It's not suppose to be that warm tomorrow so I thought I take time to do that. And I'm also going to New Look to buy a dress that I saw, that I might be wearing the day before my sisters wedding. It's really cute! I hope it'll fit! :)

I am so nervous about Dublin, I have reached a certain age now, where I feel like I have to make up my mind about what I want to do. I have to try different things to be able to do so. And plan is to see if this is something for me, it's the only way to go about, to try. It seem so be hard but then again what isn't hard. What is the worst thing that could happen? I drop out after a year and I have gotten to experience Dublin for a year. That's not so bad... It's all going so fast now and my mind can't quite keep up, and before I realise it I have lived in Paris for two years and now I'm leaving... It's so weird. But I feel like I don't have any time to wast.




Bisous strangers!

I did my last exam today! It was an oral exam, where the teacher asked questions about one out of 7 texts we have read this semester. I think I did pretty well because I was damn lucky! I got my favorite text, Le Bourjois , the only one I actually knew because the others I had read only once, so when I turned the questionere over I was so happy!

After my exam I went to Bois de Vincenne with Maria and Isak and I think I tanned a little bit!

I'm on summer break now and I am most happy about it! I have so much to do, and I'm thinking about going somewhere this summer, because this summer is ALL about tanning! I am on my way, have tanned a little but I want more!

This week is very important to me, because... I'm aplying to my school in Dublin, even if I have second thoughts about it since I didn't realise life in Dublin was even more expensive than life in Paris... But whatever, it's just for two years! I'll be fine!

The thing I'll miss the most is speaking french... I love speaking french, and it wouln't be a part of my everyday life anymore and it will be a bit sad. I don't really have any friends that I can talk to either (no one has skype ect.).


Bisous strangers!

Today I did everything, but reading the texts I should have read for tomorrows exam! I went to H&M to find a bikini, but that totally didn't go as planned. Since when are all girls in Paris a fuckin size 34? My ass is a LITTLE bigger than that.... So I bought a dress instead, see bellow, I thought it was funny since there were humming birds on it and when I was little my mum always called me "lilla colibri" (little hummingbird in swedish). And then I went home, did a whole lot of nothing, talked to my sister (Filippa) on MSN until I decided to go get some sushi take away at "Sushi Love" - the sushi restaurant across the street from my apartment. I have never been there! Shame on me! I sat myself down at my usual place by the Seine and ate the lovely pieces of sushi!

I have started to realise that I'm leaving Paris in a month... I can't belive I'm not coming back, it's seems so surreal and I'm starting to doubt what I'm doing, is it really the right thing or am I only leaving because of only one thing? If it wasn't for that thing, would I have stayed?

I talked to my mum about it and she accused me planning too much ahead and not living in the present... I'm going to miss my entire life if I don't learn to live right now and not think about the future so much.

Anyway, my oral exam is tomorrow and I am nervous since I don't know the texts that well, and I don't really have any time to think about the questions since it's oral and that means I'll be that much more embarassed if I get the answers wrong.




Sushi by the Seine, I love the little bag you get! I wanted to keep it but
them I realised that it was actually a bag for food and it's not ideal to
walk around with a take away bag...




My hummingbird dress, I admit that it screams the 80's and it's definitely
something you could see my mum wearing on pics from when I was
2 years old. But I like it.




Puss strangers!

I have a major sunburn! The sun must be extremely stong becaus I spent two and a half hours and I totally burned my self, it hurts so bad... I can't even wear cloths! I have a straight line over my whole chest and it burns burns burns!!!

I am taking a day off from the sun tomorrow, or atleast I'm not going until after 15.00 to avoid the dangerous sun. I thought I would study for a bit and then go buy myself a bikini so that I can tan not only my legs and chest but also the rest of me!

After sunbathing I went to see Cass and Cornelia and other in a park near Hôtel de ville and after much drikning from there side we were off to Popin. It was my first time, and Cornelia was oh so contente that she finally got me to go there and here comes the scary part: I actually liked it! I never thought I would! It reminds me of where I used to go as a teenager, and the guys were cute (atleast I would think there where if I was still 16)!




Probably the only place in Paris where you dare to show this much skin.





Outside Popin, Cornelia and Cassandra goes sentimental when thinking
about the fact that in a months time they'll be seperated from each
other.



Bisous strangers

So, tomorrow is the day of my final exam. I try not to think about it that much and I guess it's working.

I just got rid of my headache (yey), I felt it coming at school doday, so I went to bed to sleep for an hour, and I didn't wake up until three!! Anyway, then I went for a swim, I didn't to swim that much because of two things:

1. There was this guy coming on to me, which is very strange, I was wearing a swimming cap and I promis it's not a look you'd ever wanna have when you meet any one who knows you. But he still thought I was soooo beautiful and I told him that I thought was lazy just standing around, and so he tryed to proove the opposit.
2. There were too many people, and they didin't get that they weren't the only ones wanting to use the pool.

On my way to my favorite place in Paris, where I spent the an hour
watching the sunset, thinking about stuff... watching the water...









Water therapy, it always work, I could sit for hours just watching this.



Cross your fingers for tomorrow and my exam!! :)




Bisous strangers!

Okey, so I did my usual search on google, entering words like, reggae, rasta, dreadlocks yada yada...


And I saw the most GORGEOUS man!!!! I have no words...






Who is this man? He is so beautiful!! And with perfect
locks too... I really just want to marry him and have
his children... Look at his eyes! and lips! and hair!
Man.. if you see this, please contact me and ask me
out on a date...

I am up and going and not at all tired. I slept for 3 hours last night and I'm sure it's going to katch up with me eventually... I still have another 12 wakeing hours to go.

This is what I did instead of sleeping:

• Did the dishes
• Tryed to read a book, about infidility, silly me, it made things worse, what did I expect.
• Cleaned my bathroom.
• Talked to an old friend on MSN.
• Opened the window, closed the window, opened it again and closed it again.

I went to school today and yes it was okey.

The thing about my class.... I just don't get how they can be at "niveau avancé", I mean.. the most logical things they don't get. I don't want to sound mean or anything because there are certainly things that I don't understand either, and I guess I have certain advantages because I've been hearing french for two years and can pretty much hear what sounds right, but most people in my class can't even talk relaxed and that's what surprises me. How do they speak at the lower classes whatever they are called.. I mean they are great at grammar and stuff but when it comes to talking... it's natural to then. I know I suck at wrighting and grammar.. But at least I can talk and that's what's important, I think. I bet those who can't would say the opposite. My teacher doesn't like me though so I guess being able to talk doesn't get you anywhere at the Sorbonne. God, I'm such a bitch... I'm sorry... :S

Anyway I'm continuing my studies today at Oscars place to be able to focus. but that will be later. Now I'm eating candy and making myself a big cup of coffee!


While writing this I feel a heavy fatigue coming... But I'm not allowed to sleep, then I can't sleep tonight! I'm making myself supertired! :)

Last night was a bit chaotic, I tryed to study but I couldn't so after I had watched TV for three hours straight without really watching, I met a friend, and we sat at my favorite place in Paris, it was very nice getting my mind off school, we talked about music (he is a musician), about Italy/Senegal/Ivory Coast and Sweden vs. France... after that I walked home and I slept until 15.00 today. I must have been very tired or more likely: I'm avoiding stuff that I need to do!

This is the last week of school before the exams (on saturday) and I don't know what to do. I'm doing nothing, I don't study at all and I have no idea how I'm going to pass this exam.. If I don't it will be disaster and there will be no Dublin. Knowing that, I still can't seem to focus on my studies. I just can't handle stress that well I guess. I completely fall apart when I'm feeling stessed.

Anyway, I went on a long walk today, I started at my place and then I walked all the way to Concorde and then my foot hurt so I decided to take the metro back et voilà here I am!





Cute pic from when Carro was here a couple of weeks ago!

I'm making a list of drinks I love tonight, I was going to a party, at a friends house, but I didn't sleep at all last night so I decided to stay home and feel sorry for myself! The list isn't in order, I love 'em all!

1. Mango juice



I am a big fan of mango juice! I love it! I drink it everytime I'm at
Café Oz, after a rough night. If someone wants to buy me a after 06.00
drink, mango juice is the only way to go!


2. Chai Latte



This drink reminds me of a café in Lund, called Ariman whew I
used to hang as a baby. I first tasted it there and it was amazing,
then I tasted the sweeted powder Chai Latte from Espresso House
and that's when I really fell in love! 


3. Hot chocolat



This drink reminds me of my mother, she always makes
me hot chocolat when I'm sad or tired. And it's not icky
fast choco, but real hot chocolat from scratch. That is also
the only thing I can not be without, while on a diet.


4. Mirinda



This is a new drink for me, I don't think it excist in Sweden... My favorite
flavor is strawberry. One glass is well enough of this very sweet but
tasty drink. It's like drinking candy!



5. Rum and coke



Did you know that the only thing I drink when out partying is
rum and coke? I don't drink any other drinks. I have notice
that most people hate this drink.. I do not understand why!
It's the caribbean, baby!! I'm a pirate, what else could I
possibly be drinking?


6. Water



Water is essential. But I actually love it! I don't like drinking anything
but water with my food for exampe. Carro, she always takes Coke with
her meal, but I can't do that! It's so much better with water! It clenses
your moth and you feel all the flavors from them food! ooooh, it's
amazing!!


did I forget anything...? I don't think so...


OH of course! Coca Cola!!


6. Coca Cola



This is the way I like my Coca Cola, not in a glass bottle, not in a can,
but in a plastic bottle! It's very important! And even more important:
It has to be diet coke, absolutely not Pepsi Max, and I'm not that fond of
Coca Zero either, everybody knows Coca Zero is for men! :P


Well that's all for tonight folks! Hope you enjoy knowing what I like to drink!



Bisous strangers.

1. I must be the most sensitive person walking this earth. I have finally figured out what my problem is. Remember I said I had moved my bed to the floor...? CAN NOT HANDLE IT! There are many theories saying that you shouldn't do anything else in your bed than sleeping (and sex of course). Well now I do ptetty much everything in my bed, I eat, I chat, I watch TV. I do everything, exept what I should so in it, that is sleeping.

2. I need to clean my apartment. I have no idea how I'm going to do that though. It's like.. the wors of the worst...


3. My favorite women! (I have a soft spot for blonds...)




Kate Hudson, it number one in my heart!



Sasha, oh Sasha, what I wouldn't do to look like you..



Kate Bosworth, there is nothing to say there...




And of course Gisele.

Another great day! I woke up at 12.08, feeling horrible, heard a rumer from Fran about the girls meeting at Breakfast in America. The rumer was confirmed by Cornelia and then it was that same old same old: I don't have time to wash my hair so I'll have to find a quick solution to hide the grease.
Out of breath I entered B.I.A and squeezed in with the seven other girls at a table for four. I was such a good girl today! I ordered in SALAD with my burger instead of fries :) The second I saw my plate I changed my mind. Burger and a salad just doesn't do it for me... I had to make up for my loss of calories so I decided to have a Banana split for dessert :) And it was worth it, because it was probably the top ten of b. splits I have ever had.

20 € poorer I went with Camilla and her friend Nelly to Les Halles where I wanted to buy a webcam, I just didn't know that they were that expensive so I couldn't be bothed.

Now I'm at home with some snacks, watching Gladiator.

My phone has decided to work again so I can now take pictures with my phone instead of my stupid camera, so I'll make up for it with more than one picture! :)




Banana Split






Nice house in Paris... but now I can't remember where it was...





The second time I used these shoes and the rain ruined them..






I live on coffee these days, both at home and at work. At work they
have espresso maker so.. Je profite! I have my favorite cup there made
out of glass. It makes great foam. I love it!




Bisous strangers!

Today I didn't go to school. I seem to be really tired these days, so I slept until 11 and once I woke up it took about 4 hours befor I was ready to leave home for the library. That is the only place I can study and even there I can't focus for more then one hour. But I think it's better that I do a little than nothing at all.

Today Camilla invited me to come with her and the girls to a place on Champs - Elysee called Le Regine, where they had After work, 15 euros for food and champagne. Normally I don't spend that much money but since I'm leaving Paris soon I thought what the heck. They served pizza and all sorts of delicious salads, that Camilla certainly took advantage of, by somehow manage to get ahead of everybody not one time but more like 6 times! She just kept on going! It was fuuuuun! But I had such a head ache so I went home after 5 glasses of champagne.

I don't know what's wrong with me, I have gotten so boring lately. I am just so worried about not passing my exams. I am on try for CSN (a swedish system that supports students finantially), since I have failed previous courses and still gotten money, I would normally have no right to get anymore, so they put me on try and it is OH SO important that I pass my exam!






It's not easy to resist all - you - can - drink champagne...




Bisous strangers.

I am going to present my sisters today because they are very important to me, and I wouldn't have had my family any other way!





Alexandra is the oldest of four sisters. She is very artistic and has many talents. So many, in fact, that she can't have trouble keeping herself together. She is a bit hyperactive and adores dressing as provocative as possible. She is very understanding and never juges anyone no matter what. She is very much for traditions, at least at christmas time. She is probably the reason why we are still searching for easter eggs in our garden.





Stephanie is scaringly logic and organized. Sometimes it feels like we don't have the same parents at all. haha. She will be the first one to get married (this summer!!congrats :) When she was little she went by the name of: Mum's little comfort because ever since she was little she has been good and responsable one! She is the bridge bewteen all of us, the organizer. She gets things done. "Make a list" you often hear her say!





Filippa is lip gloss chick number one. This is the queen of both sweat pants and lip gloss. Fortunately not at the same time. She is like night and day, at home she is the worst slacker you'll ever see and on parties she is the one who glitters the most. She likes pink and she knows all quotes from all the movies. 99% of our conversation is based on quotes from movies, and the one who manages to talk entirely with quotes is the best. She is also an amazing dancer... if you like eurovision and 80's music..........




My mum often says that she can't belive we are sisters, we all just have real strong personalities in totally different directions, I think I'm the one with least personality of my own, since I'm the youngerst, I have gotten a little bit of all of them (know, I'm not that organized).




Bisous strangers!

I just signed up for an art class this summer near where I live in Sweden, in a place called Fridhems Folkhögskola i Svalöv. I have taken a summer class there before, in Oriental dancing. There was only one cours left. I wanted to take the painting class (all sorts of painting, oil, aquarelle e.t.c) but they were all full during the whole summer, so I signed up for sketching (after all, that's what I enjoy the most so..it's all good:).

So I spent all day at the library, so proud of myself :)

I have this week off from work so I am going to be able to focus 100 % on school! I have forgotten how much work it is. I am exhausted after two hours for trying to keep my concentration up (because of my ADHD), it takes a lot of enegy... Imagine having class without any interruption for four hours, that's probably the same amount of effort I put in to a two hour class.

I'm scared that I will mess up my final exams because of this.. The exams are for three hours, I will be able to focus for one of them, maybe one and a half. The hardest part is the oral exam. The first minute I'm like a fox, but then everything turns to one single noice mixed with all the different noices coming from everywhere and I can no longer make out the words, let alone understand the big picture of what they are talking about.

I'm happy today, because one of my closest friends decided to start talking to me again :P I am happy for that because he means a great deal to me! :) Tu sais que je t'adore, Dodo!! Tu es mon chouchou:)




Dodo and me at some club in Chalons - en - Champagne.





Bisous strangers!

On my way home, I wanted to buy a baguette and there was a homeless man sitting outside asking for money. I only had my card so I couldn't give him anything. As I stood in line waiting for my turn I said to myself: Yes, I am going to better my karma! So I bought a Pain au chocolat for him (no FIRST I stood for five minutes trying to figure out what he might like. Was he the quish type? or the baguette type? or the croissant type? Anyway I settled for a pain au chocolat and I felt so much better. I went outside to offer it to him with the words:

Excuse me sir, would you like a pain au chocolat?

He looked at me with a sad sad look on his face, and started smashing two coins together with his hands looking down, not saying anything at all. I asked him again in case he hadn't heard it but he just continued ignoring me and playing with his coins. I was really hurt...

Normally, homeless people in Paris never excepte anything but money, partly because some people (it's actually true) what's to get rid of them so they poison food and give it to them. I guess also partly because they don't eat much since most money goes to either drugs or alcohol. But I just came from the store I couldn't possibly have poisoned it!

So I went, FINE, I was just trying to be nice, and now I'm eating it with my coffee.

I was very close to stay home today, but I managed to get out of bed and get dressed and all. I deeply regret it now, since I got back an essay in french I wrote ages ago..... I really don't know what to say, except I am obviously no genious when it comes to writing and I'm embarressed to reveal the results: 11/20. OMG. How can it be so hard to write a damn essay? I speak so much better french then some of the people in my class but when it comes to writing, I can't seem to focus and I forget all these details that are essential, small dumb mistakes that I am well aware of but I still don't think of it at the time. Maybe it has to do with my ADHD, we seem to have a heard time focusing on details :(

I'm not going to let this destroy me so I'm gathering my energy and I'm off to the library! :) I hope to get some of the things done! I just need to make a planning of all the things I need to practise on! Because I have no idea... :S

Another drawing today, I talked to Helena today and she loved my drawings but there is one in particular that she likes and that is the one on my ex boyfriend and she wanted me to send it to her. lol. I'm sooo never looking at that again. It's well hidden in my diary, next to the words "fucking bastard".



This is my second sketch from the triology of "Ballerina". As you can
see it ressembles the "Ballerina" I've uploaded here a couple of days ago.
She has (I didn't do this for any particular reason) a very odd look on
her face, I can't decide if it's the pain of, boredom, or koncentration.
But I like it and I've decided not to change it. Makes her special.



Bisous strangers!

What I realised friday is that all those texts we've been reading in class: Molière, Sartre, Ponge will actually be a part of the exam.... hmm. There are eight texts all together and I have read say.. three of them. Big OUPS!!

I went to the library today, George Pompidou, it's good for studying but the line takes like an hour. I was half way when I realised that this was going to be a looong day, and I wanted to leave, but since I was half way I thought, what the heck, I might as well stay until the end. I'm trying this new me: Be a fighter, nothing comes for free!

Fran didn't show up, apparently she had a rough night and was too tired to study so I was all alone. At Pompidou there are very many cute men (sometimes hard to focus on studies). It's amazing how you can see so many beautiful people at the same time, and it's only here. Where are they in real life? In school? At home?

Anyway, I am going to go there every day between class and work, maybe I'll even bring a lunch box! I had one with Curious George (my favorite as a little girl) but I left it in Sweden so I'll have to take a ugly old plastic box instead.

Cornelia wanted me to go with her to Popin tonight, but I just got home and I am dead after that stupid line at Pompidou. I still haven't been at Popin and I promised her that I will go there with her whenever she wants to after my exam! :) She is leaving Paris too after a couple of years here, and I think we both find it extremely hard to adjust to this change.




This is my little dog, she sits in the window to be able to look out, like
a cat :)




Bisous strangers

At 18h00 Fran called me and wanted me to come to the library to study. She is there almost everyday, studying for her finals in translation or something, I haven't quite understood what it is she's doing, all I know is that it's hard.

So I went to the library at Centre Pompidou and I actually studied for almost one and a half hour! woooow that's very good for being me!

Then Fran had to leave cuz she was going out with friends. She invited me but I didn't feel like going out since I have promised myself to stay away from parties until after school.

So half an hour after Fran left I went to Mcd at Gare d'Austerlitz and as I sat not doing much at all except eating my burger, I started a conversation with two basketplayers (tall as hell). They were on their way to a game in some town in France (don't know it) but they played for a team in Florence, Italy. They were funny and they were both named Emmanuel. After showing them the train station I went home and here I am watching tv, a program about trafficking. I'm going to make a plan for what I'm going to study tomorrow at the library.. I know I have so much to learn but I just don't know where to start!! There is just so much!!

Anyway today I'll show you a little skech I did long ago, not my best but I've learned that you should also show your bad not just your best.



One of my favorite places in Paris; Moulin Rouge. I'm not perticularily
happy with this drawing, it's not well done and put in any effort, but
as u know, I never draw the same thing twice. Once I've drawn
something the magic is gone.



Bisous strangers.

I feel as if the ones who have found the love of there life are the boring non comlicated ones. (I'm sorry but this is the way I feel). Or at least one of the two people in the couple is boring enough for the both of them and she/he together with this other part she/he equals out so that they become 50/50 fun/boring. I'm not saying I'm particularily fun but I am complicated and this is why I probably should find a calm almost boring partner. ying yang I suppose..

Why is it that is it so hard to find someone that makes your heart skip a beat? I have found it once, but I lost it and more important do I want to find it again?
I am a very emotional person so maybe I should try not to listen to my heart that much since I seem to fall twice as hard when things go wrong. Maybe some people are better off alone? There aren't many men who can give me that special feeling and if they don't I just get bored.
The question is... Is it worth being in a relationship with someone who you kinda like and who treats you like a queen if that feeling isn't there? Is it that feeling that I actually should avoid since it seems to get me more down than up?

I can't seem to get out of bed today! I have slept all morning, I needed it.

I doing a serie of drawings that I'm going to put in my apartment in Lund. This morning I did another in the same style as "Ballerina" that you can see here. I can't wait until I'll get then framed ant ! :)

Today I'm suppose to study at the library, but I can't seem to get my ass out of bed!

I have rearranged a little bit in my apartment, I now sleep on the floor instead of sleeping in my loft bed. I have never liked sleeping up there so now I use it for storage and I sleep on the floor. But I have noticed that it's much harder to wake up when you don't have to climb down and turn off the alarm then it is to get up from the floor, it is so tempting to through yourself back in bed, the regular "just five more minutes".

Yesterday, Carro and I found a beautiful little park in the 12th arr. We just laid there looking at the sky, taking photos and laughing (as usual). I bet it's tha best park in Paris at summer time.

Today is friday and so far I have no plans tonight, I'm not partying until I'm done with school because I can't seem to party with moderation. haha.

Todays project is to design my balcony in my apartment in Lund. Since I'm moving in this summer with my cat (if he wants to) so I need to make my balcony baby safe. I hope he likes living in an apartment, he once jumped out from my window on the 2nd floor...

I have yet do decide if I'm going to stay in Sweden or if I'm going to go to Dublin. I can't make up my mind. It's making me crazy.




I don't have a name for todays drawing. Enjoy!


Bisous strangers!

I thought I'd be a little bit more serious this time. You can't always talk about boys, parties and bags. So I'm going to start showing my art here to make myself a bit more interesting! (that is if anybody cares) lol. I love drawing but I don't do it that often anymore. I have started doing some drawings to make my apartment look like it's mine (I don't own anything here) I should take some art classes to get better (apparently I have the talent but I don't quite know how to use it). Maybe I'll do that after I finished school and before I move back to Sweden (wow, that's the first time I've said that, feels strange indeed). I have decided to make another drawing this weekend to pass my time now that my long lost LOVAH (Carro) is gone! mouwa mouwa!!





My latest piece of "art". Hope you're liking it. This is "Ballerina".


I finished work just in time to bump into Carro about to leave for the airport, we have the best timing! :)


Bisous strangers!

It's Carros last day in Paris and I am sader than ever!! Last night we ate at a place called Little Italy and and then we chilled at home. We are best at night, that's when we get our laughing attacs. I'm happy that I have friends I can laugh with, there aren't many people who can make me laugh like she does... Funny girl :)


Now she just left me with my coffee and went shopping. We are going to buy a bag for me today, but it's not THE bag, just a bag I saw on my way home from work yesterday. I'll see if I have money enough to buy it today. After having my friend here for a week I'm a little bit broke. We are both big spenders and have bad influence on eachother.


Today we had a test in school, and the result were disastrous. Not only for me, but for everybody. One poor girl didn't even get one right. I got 4 out of 17 and so did the rest of the class, 3 - 8 out of 17..... We are a sad bunch of students. One girl had 16 out of 17, but she lives for her studies and she is there like 40 minutes befor she starts class. She's doing extremely well in class and I admirer her! Imaging being someone with so much disipline that she can go on like that! I don't do much studies outside of class, and it shows! It really does. But these two coming weeks I will get serious and study until the finals!

Now town! Bye strangers!

I just got home from work and there was no Carro! Where has she gone to... ? I think she is still out shopping and doing her think in her hoods.

I haven't been able to sleep at all, for three days, it's horrible and my brain is all mushy! I didn't go to school today, i woke up at 7 and had the worst headache so I just told myself to go back to bed and I got up two hours later to go to phonetique!

Now I'm going to make myself a salad with tuna and avocado and mmmmmmmm... mange it before Carro gets here.

We don't seem to do that much in Paris since I'm always so tired off school, work and my mental state. Ever since I decided to leave Paris, I have been feeling very moody and gets angry for NOTHING.

Is it really the right thing to do? Will I regret it later? I feel that I should listen to my heart in this case, but my heart says two things. It wants to stay but my brain says it's for the wrong reasons.. so... what do I do?

Nothing more to say right now except that I'm eating an amazing salad!!!

I bought a new mascara (L'Oreal) and facial creme (Creme de rose from Dr Hauschka <3 )


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Carro and I started  by eating at O'Sullivans (after all it was the 1st of May) and then we got pretty drunk on our way to Corcoran's and the party went on until 6. Early for being us, normally we never get home before 8 but we were a little beat after friday night and our stalker and everything so we decided to call it a night. Just another normal day out; a Nic & Carro classic.


Yesterday Carro wanted to visit her old hoods, Barbès. I don't like going there I never have. I am never going back there again, I know I've said that when I got robbed too, but this time really the last drop. I got spanked by a man! Yes, really, spanked. As I walked pass him he spanked my behind (!!!!!!!!!)
These guys are not to mess with, so I just walked on ignoring him. And then he ran up to me again and spanked me a second time... I just wanted to kill him there and then but I didn't want to get into a fight with him he would probably not hesitate to hit me so I swallowed my pride and said to myself, "see it as a compliment, everybody likes your ass, nothing weird about that. Not every girl gets spanked twice on one day!!"

I don't understand those men, they have zero respect for women. It's discusting. I hate Barbès.

Today I think we are going to stay in, the sky is literally peeing, I am in no mood to go out plus it's 16.12 and Carro is still sleeping. That's also one of our traditions doing nothing, it's like she never left Paris. Everything is excactly the way it was when she lived here. I know it's never going to be like this again, so I have to keep all our memories close to my heart. I will never forget our year in Paris.




Carro brought me some swedish chocolate balls from her work in
Sweden. Goodie!



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So, yesterday was excellent! Carro arrived a bit late, around 23h or something but that didn't stop her from going out for a Nic & Carro special! That's what I love about that girl, she is always in the mood no matter how tired she is!! (the poor girl had worked since 6 o'clock in the moring tha same day and then she went straight on to the flight) And oh my god it was crazy! We danced our asses off last night, that's another thing I love about her, there is really no better dancing partner than her! :)


Our evening began at O'Sullivans (as usual) and then we made Steven get us into Magnum (I've been there but it was Carros first, so there we met some friends) and thenn we wrapped it up ad Café Oz.

We decided to take the bus home and that's when the big bomb dropped. When we took the bus home a guy just wouldn't leave us alone. He wasn't at all creapy or rude, he was actually pretty nice. But we were tired (it's was around 8h this morning so..) And he got of the bus with us wanting to buy us breakfast. And so when we got to our door we said our goodbyes but he insisted on coming up for some tea and we said absolutely not, and we said goodbye again and then we closed the door on him and started climbing my 6 floors.
Halfway up he somehow managed to get the door open (there is a code). We heard him in the stairs and we totally panicked!! We ran up the last three stairs, got into our apartment and looked the door.
Now I don't know what his deal was but for some reason he thought my name was EVA and he came to our door, started knocking and talking and we were super quiet and didn't dare to move. But after 10 minutes we got bored and started getting ready for bed while laughing because it was just crazy weird. But he just would not give up! The guy wasn't in anyway rude but, he simply stood there talking and trumming his fingers against my door.

Now, you'd think a guy would know when a pick up isn't gonna happen. But this guy wouldn't give up and after having been outside our door for an hour my neigbours called the police on him and they came up arresting him for trespassing and disturbing behavior (we woke the neighbours baby).
The police was awfully cute and he took my name and number and said that the guy seemed harmless but they were nearby so we shouldn't worry and that he just seem to like me very much, since he claimed that he wouldn't be standing outside my door for an hour if he wasn't serious about me. He wanted my number and stuff and asked me to knock two times on my door if I wanted him to leave and stuff. (likt that song, Knock three times lol) It was crazy.

The thing is, this only happens when we are together, Carro and I! I don't understand, but there is something about our "couple" that attracts strange people! We should not be together! Maybe it is our light hair/dark hair/ la petite blonde et la petite diva - thing.. Oh I don't know. But it was one of the strangest things that has ever happened in Paris even for us.

After he had stood there for 15 minutes we could not take him serious anymore! We started laughing uncontrollably pressing our faced into pillows so he wouldn't hear. It was just really pathetic...

Anyway, Carro is still sleeping but when she wakes uo we might go out shopping, I didn't take one single picture last night I have completely stopped... It's not that fun anymore.




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