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puuh, now I'm in my mothers living room after having been out for a walk in the snow with my two very spoiled and very wild and uncontrollable dogs. My body feels like jelly, haha. Christmas is finally over, it has been lovely and the first time my sisters husband was celebrating with us! Two of my sisters went to town to see some friends, and my syster and her husband is out ice skiing somewhere. We are all going to meet up at my aunts house tonight for some more food and weight gaining!

Some things has changed since a few years back, for example for the first time in my life (at least as far back as my memory goes) we all went to church! And let me tell you that this tradition is here to stay, it was so beautiful and cozy! And such beautiful voices had the girls who sang! I never thought that I would enjoy it since I've always thought of the Swedish church as cold and boring. But this was different. So yes, I will continue to go to church at least this one time every year, at Christmas.

bisous bisous

Now we are all gathered at my mother's house, and it has been a busy day! We have been cleaning and cooking and arguing and laughing, and eating. It's pretty fun to have three sisters. Well I'm gonna let the pics to the work here! My brother in law just walked in the door, he beat the snow and managed to come here from London.








Just a few years ago we started the tradition to actually play games,
something my family has never been big on, because we all suck
pretty bad and we never play it with anyone else but among sisters
because we cheat in order to be able to even get the questions right.



Asterix characters, we made it a little bit more personal, than the normal
colors.



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Today I went to se Harry Potter and it was (pardon my french) fucking good!! As usual, my mum was horrified of the idea that I went to see a movie ALONE. I actually enjoy it. What better company do I have but myself, right?








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hihi, today was laundry day and I made the huge mistake to stay in my pajamas and go down to put everything in the washing machine. I went back up and I took my shower and OUPS (!!!!!!!!!) no towel... Everything was in the stupid machine!!! I had to stand around bloody freezing in the bathroom NAKED until I was dry enough to put on the only cloths I had left....








Sweet Helena, I bet she is thinking about the Polish Christmas food she
told me about! But why that scares her so, I don't understand...




Me in my awesome new scarf one of the things I gave myself disguised
as a Christmas gift.




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Today I got sick of feeling sorry for myself without being able to do anything about it. So I got a brilliant idea! I decided to have "Christmas before Christmas" by myself. Well I didn't decide it, I actually needed most of the stuff I bought. (hmmmm, doubtful, very doubtful).






My christmas gifts to myself from myself :)





My new golden bracelet.




A matrioshka - doll, also known as a babuschka - doll, is decorating
my new book where I will wright important things that one need to
feel good about one self - I always wanted a black book, an elegant
one. But then I saw this one and it was cheap, and I really wanna be
smiling  with my eyes like the eyes of this pretty babuschka.




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December and Christmas is a hard time, at least for me. Not fot those with a significant other, I imagine. As they say in the movie "Mixed Nuts": Everything is lonelier and sadder at Christmas and the suicide rate goes up (that has to mean something right?). And it's actually true.

I do have my family, I'm sorry for those who don't even have their families. I have my mum and my sisters. I'm happy for that. But seeing all the happy people settled, having found what they have been looking for in life is not only stressing me, it makes me feel like it's more hopeless then ever, and that it will take years and years to catch up with what all my friends have already accomplished in life.

I bet it's the fact that for the first time in two years I'm 100 % single that makes me feel extra lonely. I forgot how empty it feels not to have anyone in your life, and you don't really see anyone on his way into my life either. This is exactly where I was 3 years ago and this feeling of emptiness in my heart is excruciating. Bur well, that's life. Everybody hurts, that's just the way it is. But I'm still asking myself, is there any man out there who I'll be able to put up with in the long run?

My friend, Kazuma, came over yesterday for a movie night with pizza. And we decided to drink all my 5 year collection of Glögg (mulled wine). Then we watched movies and had a lovely time.

Kazuma with his glögg!!





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I just found this old pic of my mum and I totally fell in love, my mum was so pretty when she was young! This was on a skiing holiday when she was about 17, according to her. I think she was older than 17 on this picture but what do I know right?

I think she has got a real model look going on, I bet that if someone had her look nowdays she would be a model.






Marianne, my mother <3




Bisous bisous

Today was a pretty good day. My mum came to town to have lunch with her daughters. Only one of us, Stephanie, was unable to make it. We went to an Italian restaurant, I ordered Pasta Uno (ravioli filled with cheese and mixed with a tomatoe sauce with bacon and cherry tomatoes). It was good, but not great unfortunately. My sisters and mum ordered pizza.

My oldest sister, Alex, surprised me with her home made gingerbread that she had put frosting on. She knows love elephants so she made me a mother elephant with her little baby elephant. I eat it on my way home but I took this picture so that I could remember it. Thank you, my dear sister!






Baby elephant with it's mother.



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wow, today was cold. I was out buying lotion for my dried out skin. It gets like that from the cold, I'm sure I'm not the only one.

Swedish winter. I love it!





wow, Lund has gone wild with the christmas decoration!






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It's not the first time I talk about my love for reggae and reggae musicians! And this is the pretty rasta I am in love with today! His name is Lucky Dube, a south african who was named Lucky by his mum who thought she couldn't have children. So when she poped this cutie out, she could not think of any other name than Lucky.

Unfortunately Lucky Dube was killed in 2007 in the suburb Rosettenville by three men with guns. He had just dropped of his kids off and when shot he tryed to drive to safety but died as he collided with a tree.




Lucky Dube



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Release me - This song is AMAZING. I am not kidding, it is so damn beautiful!!






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Today, I went to a vernissage in Lund. One of my closest friends, Helena, invited me to come since it's her boyfriend, Max Hedlund, is an amazing artist! And he is the one showing his art. This "collection" or whatever you call it in the world of art, he has interpeted famous people, among others Greta Garbo and, my personal favorite, Ingrid Bergman. Which leads me to what I would really love for christmas! I want the painting of Ingrid Bergman!

http://www.maxarts.n.nu/ Here you can see all his paintings! Go ahead!! :)





Ingrid Bergman - by Max Hedlund. I do hope I will have the money to
buy this amazing piece of art, even if I'm broke at the moment. But
art is art, and art is forever!





Greta Garbo









OBS! I'm still a mute lady. I think I'll see a doctor tomorrow, I'm scared that it'll never come back again!


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As people know, I have the worst cold. ah ah, it is horrible.

I think I have gotten an inflammation on my vocal cords, I've have had it once before, a few years ago and what I'm most worried about is that my singing voice never fully recovered for it. I really hope I'll be able to sing again after this.

Well, anyway despite my cold I couldn't help but play with all the snow on my balcony! Tomorrow I will make a snowman! :)

Tomorrow; SNOWMAN



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Crystal Renn, born 1986, is a popular plus size model who has been doing jobs for fashion marks like Chanel and D&G. I think she is gorgeous! When she first started modelling, at 14 as a size zero model, she was told to loose more than a third of her waight. (which is obviously ridiculous) And then they offered her to become a plus size model so instead of loosing weight she now gained about 30 kg. And then things started happening for the little lady. She is also the author of the book: 'Hungry: A Young Model's Story of Appetite, Ambition and the Ultimate Embrace of Curves"















For Jean Paul Gaultier (pretty dress)











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I had a strange night, i had those dreams I call flashdreams, waking up every 10 minutes just to fall asleep straight away. It was horrible! And at 7 o'clock in the morning I realised that I was burning up. I took a wet cold towel to cool myself down. I was feverish.

Good think I'm spending my last two nights in a hotel! And I love it! I feel much better once I got to eat hotel breakfast!:) Baguette, coffee pain au chocolat yeah you know where I'm going with this.. lol.

I came to Paris two days ago, and my friend Cass was nice enought to invite me to spend one night at her place, and I'm most greatful for that since I would probably have been out on the street if not.

Yesterday I went to my old hoods, 13ème arr., to see my little boy, the one I used to look after as living in Paris. And that was the best! That family is wonderful, I like them so much. Oscar, the little boy had missed me for sure. He has done a lot of progress on his guitar, something he rfound very boring before.  Now he has changed teacher and this one lets him play Black eyed peas songs! I'm so proud of him! :) He played the whole: I've got a feeling for me yesterday. He is my little guy! <3 He is the one who made me want to have a son in the future, which I didn't at all before, I wanted all girls!


I don't know if I've posted this song already but whatever, I adore it!





Bracket, Yori Yori




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So far my visit here in Paris has been disastor. Right from the start everything went wrong. I had a meeting with an old friend, something I'm glad I did, even if it hurt like hell, yes, like hell. The feeling I got as seeing this friend can't be put into words. But it did me good. I got what I wanted and I'm all good.

Maybe this is what caused everything else to fall apart. I will never know.

I love Paris. But I think that with all that has happened here, makes me think of one thing only when I see this city: Pain. My dear Paris, my beloved Paris, I hereby put you in my past. I will write and I will visit. But we will never be the same.

Now I am in Beauvais at a friends house, and I'm going to Paris tonight. I want to go home, so I'm gonna try and change my departure to an earlier date.

And on top of all of this, at home my little cat died. She was almost 21 years old. Can you imagine? I will miss her, everybody will. My mum spend a lot of time taking care of her. It will be empty.


This is the song of the day. Jimmy Cliff live with Wild World.

Enjoy!





Jimmy Cliff live in Portland