loneliness comes hand in hand with christmas
December and Christmas is a hard time, at least for me. Not fot those with a significant other, I imagine. As they say in the movie "Mixed Nuts": Everything is lonelier and sadder at Christmas and the suicide rate goes up (that has to mean something right?). And it's actually true.
I do have my family, I'm sorry for those who don't even have their families. I have my mum and my sisters. I'm happy for that. But seeing all the happy people settled, having found what they have been looking for in life is not only stressing me, it makes me feel like it's more hopeless then ever, and that it will take years and years to catch up with what all my friends have already accomplished in life.
I bet it's the fact that for the first time in two years I'm 100 % single that makes me feel extra lonely. I forgot how empty it feels not to have anyone in your life, and you don't really see anyone on his way into my life either. This is exactly where I was 3 years ago and this feeling of emptiness in my heart is excruciating. Bur well, that's life. Everybody hurts, that's just the way it is. But I'm still asking myself, is there any man out there who I'll be able to put up with in the long run?
My friend, Kazuma, came over yesterday for a movie night with pizza. And we decided to drink all my 5 year collection of Glögg (mulled wine). Then we watched movies and had a lovely time.
Kazuma with his glögg!!
bisous bisous
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