nicolovesit

Today is a bad day, I hate when my routines are cut. Damn easter. I have fallen in to my well known "not doing anything at all" - routine.

Yesterday not much happened either but, as I wrote yesterday I'd might go on a date. What I didn't know is that I had actually accepted one and forgotten about it..... So after I had eaten dinner at McDonald's (this is something I have stoped doing, after I made a pact with Sanna, but yes, this time I did it and I stand for it!) While slurping up the last of my coke at McD I got a phonecall from this guy saying that he just got of work, and wondering where I'd like to have dinner... I was like, weeeeeell, I'm not really in the mood for dinner.. So we met up and I thought everything was cool, we took a walk and stuff, when suddenly he opened the door for me to Buffalo Grill... I tryed to explain to him that I had been out last night and that I really didn't feel like eating, but he insisted and I simply agreed to watch him eat. I couldn't admit to him that I just came McDonald's......... He made me order anyway and I am just to well raised to not finish my meal. I even smuggled three buns into my purse telling him that he was gonna pay for it anyway, so we might as well take it all. And so I did. I am proud of the fact that I orders salad as a side dish instead of fries, I figured that it would be easier to eat when you are full rather then fatty fries.

As I was strugguling to get my dinner down, my date seem didn't seem to do much else. Is it allowed to be that quiet on a date?  He hardly said a word during dinner, and I (the hungover one) was forced to make conversation. I said something, and he went, "yes" "no" or "okey". What is wrong with men? Can't they see when one is bored and make an effort?

I have decided not to go on anymore dates even if I get a free dinner. I might as well accept the fact that I am not ready to date someone else (it has only been three months) and there is nothing pathetic or sad about that! I just really don't think there is another man out there for me, so why bother? I'd rather pay for dinner myself and eat it with a good friend. People say that seeing new people and going on dates is suppose to help you move on, and forget about that great love, but for me it's more the other way around. Ever time I even talk to a guy it reminds me of everything I no longer have and it breaks my heart.







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