nicolovesit

On my way home, I wanted to buy a baguette and there was a homeless man sitting outside asking for money. I only had my card so I couldn't give him anything. As I stood in line waiting for my turn I said to myself: Yes, I am going to better my karma! So I bought a Pain au chocolat for him (no FIRST I stood for five minutes trying to figure out what he might like. Was he the quish type? or the baguette type? or the croissant type? Anyway I settled for a pain au chocolat and I felt so much better. I went outside to offer it to him with the words:

Excuse me sir, would you like a pain au chocolat?

He looked at me with a sad sad look on his face, and started smashing two coins together with his hands looking down, not saying anything at all. I asked him again in case he hadn't heard it but he just continued ignoring me and playing with his coins. I was really hurt...

Normally, homeless people in Paris never excepte anything but money, partly because some people (it's actually true) what's to get rid of them so they poison food and give it to them. I guess also partly because they don't eat much since most money goes to either drugs or alcohol. But I just came from the store I couldn't possibly have poisoned it!

So I went, FINE, I was just trying to be nice, and now I'm eating it with my coffee.

I was very close to stay home today, but I managed to get out of bed and get dressed and all. I deeply regret it now, since I got back an essay in french I wrote ages ago..... I really don't know what to say, except I am obviously no genious when it comes to writing and I'm embarressed to reveal the results: 11/20. OMG. How can it be so hard to write a damn essay? I speak so much better french then some of the people in my class but when it comes to writing, I can't seem to focus and I forget all these details that are essential, small dumb mistakes that I am well aware of but I still don't think of it at the time. Maybe it has to do with my ADHD, we seem to have a heard time focusing on details :(

I'm not going to let this destroy me so I'm gathering my energy and I'm off to the library! :) I hope to get some of the things done! I just need to make a planning of all the things I need to practise on! Because I have no idea... :S

Another drawing today, I talked to Helena today and she loved my drawings but there is one in particular that she likes and that is the one on my ex boyfriend and she wanted me to send it to her. lol. I'm sooo never looking at that again. It's well hidden in my diary, next to the words "fucking bastard".



This is my second sketch from the triology of "Ballerina". As you can
see it ressembles the "Ballerina" I've uploaded here a couple of days ago.
She has (I didn't do this for any particular reason) a very odd look on
her face, I can't decide if it's the pain of, boredom, or koncentration.
But I like it and I've decided not to change it. Makes her special.



Bisous strangers!